Nostalgia

I wrote I love you
On your skin last night
With my eyes closed
Hoping you would be there when I opened them again 

The roommates leave dirty dishes and dried up food crumbs and piles everywhere. They eventually clean them up, but not as quickly as I’d prefer. The bathroom currently has a hairbrush on the counter and loads of hair around the sink. After I just cleaned up in there the day before. 

When we live together, I know I like my things neater and more organized than you, but dear god it cannot be like how it is here. I want my own space to feel comfortable. Please do that with me, for me, however it happens. 

This has been one of the best weekends we have shared together. Friday I came over and helped you move your bed and your bedside table into your room. It felt so nice for you, and even for me, to finally have your own space. We put the pillows I made you on the bed and got everything organized. You had Pei Wei waiting for me and you had bought a little pot of flowers and set it up real nice. You are so incredibly sweet. We went back to my house and gathered all of the things you had here and then we went to Target. We got you some more necessities for your room and I took you to go get ice cream. You got four dollars worth of ice cream and I got two. We went back to your place and I set up the light and put photos on the wall. I spent the night there and we both slept in our underwear. It was so nice to wake up with you after a week away.

We woke up late Saturday morning and went over to my house so I could cut my neighbors lawn. I got so hot and you made me take a cold shower when I got home. We went to Goodwill and looked for a table but couldn’t find one so we went to another store and that also was a bust. We finally went to go eat at In N’ Out and we got three burgers and you ate most of the third. We went back to Target and got another side table, a fan, and cereal. It’s so cute how you make lists. We decided to go to Michaels and get stuff to make the mini terrarium, we also found the perfect fish tank so we got that and another glass jar. We then went to the pet store and found the weakest fish possible and got him. We went back to your house and I set up the fan and the table and you cleaned out the bowl. We went to my house and I spent about an hour making the mini terrariums, I think they turned out nice. We talked with my mom and looked at pictures for a while.

I came over and spent the night again after going back to Michaels to get fake plants and rocks for Betty Crocker. We got her accustomed to the water and poured her in after many hours (because you were scared she’d die). We ate and watched her for a bit and then watched a movie until we got tired. You cuddled me to sleep. I woke up at 6:30 because I’m use to my school schedule now. Betty looked dead so I told you and we watched her for an hour. We finally went back to sleep and when we woke up she looked better. I tried to feed her a pea but she didn’t want that either. We came to my house so I could write my essay. It took quite a long time but when it was done we talked and I made you dinner and we came into my room to watch Hoarders. When it got later we turned it off and cuddled and talked about our first kiss and when I gave you the ring. It was so nice and it made me remember how much I love you beyond all measure (not that I have ever forgotten). I went and dropped you off at home and you made me make sure Betty wasn’t dead and walked me to my car. I watched the storm on my drive home and Wanted was on the radio and I just thought this weekend was so nice and I cried of happiness and because of how much I love you.

I am so glad you are here. 

I have seen you every day since July 15th.

You are at your trial run for work. Today is the first day that I really won’t see you that much while you’ve been here. Seeing Heath so upset last night made me think of how I was when you weren’t around. I don’t want to take you being here for granted. It’s such a relief to know that I’ll be seeing you tomorrow, and the next day, and the next. I will never miss the distance, this is far better than I could have imagined. I can’t wait to move back home with you, too, and start that life together. 

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One year ago today you became the next chapter of my life. My heart aches to hold you close and tell you just how special this is and you are. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. We have shared so much together and reveled in it. This is a place neither of us knew, but it is the only place we want to be. Don’t forget how far we have come and how good we are together, we have made a good life for each other. During the hard nights and the mornings it’s painful to get out of bed, remember where we have come from. Remember those nights laying in bed telling the things no one has ever heard. Remember holding my hand for the first time. Remember that empty parking lot in the middle of the night where I first told you I was in love with you. Remember floating in the ocean and hearing me tell you I was happy to be alive. Remember all the first hugs in the airports. Remember the car ride when we were so happy we were screaming because we were so excited for the days to come. Remember how you cried when I gave you the ring. Remember all of the times you turned into my chest and I protected you. Remember all those nights I fell asleep in your arms and you fell asleep in mine. Remember us.
I love you more than I could ever express. I love you as much as one human being can ever love another. And more. Happy anniversary to my girl, my best friend. 

One year ago today you became the next chapter of my life. My heart aches to hold you close and tell you just how special this is and you are. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. We have shared so much together and reveled in it. This is a place neither of us knew, but it is the only place we want to be. Don’t forget how far we have come and how good we are together, we have made a good life for each other. During the hard nights and the mornings it’s painful to get out of bed, remember where we have come from. Remember those nights laying in bed telling the things no one has ever heard. Remember holding my hand for the first time. Remember that empty parking lot in the middle of the night where I first told you I was in love with you. Remember floating in the ocean and hearing me tell you I was happy to be alive. Remember all the first hugs in the airports. Remember the car ride when we were so happy we were screaming because we were so excited for the days to come. Remember how you cried when I gave you the ring. Remember all of the times you turned into my chest and I protected you. Remember all those nights I fell asleep in your arms and you fell asleep in mine. Remember us.

I love you more than I could ever express. I love you as much as one human being can ever love another. And more. Happy anniversary to my girl, my best friend. 

I’m so fucking psychotic. 

I’m so sorry. 

Look how beautiful you are! I love you!

Look how beautiful you are! I love you!

I don’t want you to go.

17 days

17 days



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